ok. despite my fear of letting ppl i dont kno too well see the craziness that goes on in my head, i've decided to put my blog link in my profile. this prolly doesn't sound like a big deal to anyone else, but it is for me. as a kid who values privacy more than most things, this was hard for me to do. so please respect my space.

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good weekend.

sylvana came to visit

mardi gras

mardi gras riot

mardi gras riot reported in the LA Times and on CNN.com

CNN
California Mardi Gras celebrations turn violent
Sunday, February 22, 2004 Posted: 12:11 PM EST (1711 GMT)

SAN LUIS OBISPO, California (AP) -- Mardi Gras celebrations turned violent when partygoers threw bottles and rocks at police, who responded by firing rubber bullets and tear gas and arresting as many as 60 people, officials said.

The rowdy revelers started hurling beads, bottles, cans, road cones and even a steel pipe at officers late Saturday after police broke up two large parties at an apartment complex near the California State Polytechnic University's San Luis Obispo campus.

An estimated crowd of about 5,000 was dispersed by police officers and sheriff's deputies.

Police said 50 to 60 people had been arrested by midnight, but there were no reports of anyone being injured.

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LA Times
THE STATE
130 Arrested in Melee After Mardi Gras Parties
Police intervene when a crowd of up to 5,000 near San Luis Obispo campus turns riotous.

From Times Staff and Wire Reports


Mardi Gras festivities degenerated into a small riot near Cal Poly San Luis Obispo late Saturday and early Sunday, leading to the arrest of 130 young people on charges that included being drunk in public, refusal to disperse and resisting arrest, authorities said.

Law enforcement officers from several agencies spent six hours breaking up a crowd of 5,000 young people who threw rocks, bottles and steel pipes at them. San Luis Obispo Police Department spokesman Rob Bryn said six officers received minor injuries.

Police used pepper balls, which explode with pepper spray on contact, and other nonlethal projectiles, to disperse the crowd near the campus after breaking up two large parties at a student housing complex, he said.

San Luis Obispo has one of the largest Mardi Gras celebrations on the West Coast, but city officials decided in 2001 to ban the increasingly rowdy parade. A federal judge ruled in 2002 that the ban was unconstitutional, and the parade returned to a daytime venue last year.

About 10,000 bystanders showed up in the rain to see the Sunday afternoon parade this year, Bryn said.




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u were hit with this at 8:02 PM

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blah. getting to that stressful part of the quarter... arrrrr.... oh weyell

umm yea... just a lil out of it... seems like things haven't been going so well recently... time to just go into hyperdrive and handle my biness. so ready for blast off? 3...2...1!!

u were hit with this at 8:37 AM

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this weekend was horrible

i actually cried in front of my mom

i am not a happy camper

u were hit with this at 5:38 PM

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morning kids!! bwahahahahaha

ok here's my song of the day... it doesn't really reflect my mood... but its just such a bomb song

song of the day
so many tears
tupac

I shall not fear no man but God
Though I walk through the valley of death
I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)
Please God walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)

Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
Left me alone I grew up amongst a dyin breed
Inside my mind couldn't find a place to rest
until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest
Tell me can you feel me? I'm not livin in the past, you wanna last
Be tha first to blast, remember Kato
No longer with us he's deceased
Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets
Now rest in peace
Is there heaven for a G? Remember me
So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears

Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Now that I'm strugglin in this business, by any means
Label me greedy gettin green, but seldom seen
And fuck the world cause I'm cursed, I'm havin visions
of leavin here in a hearse, God can you feel me?
Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
Show me some happiness again, I'm goin blind
I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin well
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
My life is in denial, and when I die,
baptized in eternal fire I'll shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer
to embrace an early death, now there's nothin left
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest
I'm barely standin, bout to go to pieces, screamin peace
And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it
I had my mind full of demons tryin to break free
They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin the flame
inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
No memories, just a misery
Paintin a picture of my enemies killin me, in my sleep
Will I survive til the mo'nin, to see the sun
Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come...

Lord, I suffered through the years (God) and shed so many tears..
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide
Seen drivebys takin lives, little kids die
Wonder why as I walk by
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin high
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game
I'm trapped inside a maze
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin crazy
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin babies
so I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
Don't trust my lady, cause she's a product of this poison
I'm hearin noises, think she fuckin all my boys, can't take no more
I'm fallin to the floor; beggin for the Lord to let me in
to Heaven's door -- shed so many tears
(Dear God, please let me in)

Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears..
I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears



u were hit with this at 2:45 AM

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argh

im emotionally unstable rite now

sometimes u just gotta wonder

goddamit

ok so i think i'm being all blah to protect myself from the hurt that i kno i am going to feel later. psychological shet. if i make sure to keep the wall up then i wont feel like i'm leaving anything behind. i thought i had it figured out. i really dont. everything is up in the air. where the FUCK am i going?!

i just need an IMMAC hug. :-/

i've been getting my work done like a hardcore mofo!! which is cool but damn i am so tired all the time now :'-( getting up at 3 will do that to ya. i dont think ima continue this skedule next week. its making me way too goddamn sad and depressed. way too goddamn lonely. but im doing well academically so its not a total loss. *le sigh*

so im heading home this weekend. should be good stuff. i just need to go home. haven't been there in a month and a half. getting a lil homesick/LA sick. i need my city of angels!! for all my los angelenos out there.... heres a song just for us!!


song of the day
under the bridge
red hot chili peppers

Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I drive on her streets
'Cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills
'Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all that way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away


u were hit with this at 4:36 PM

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how can someone or something continue to hurt you long, long, LONG after they've passed? my heart just isn't healed. i feel broken. still.

this needs to stop. u are so not worth this. i've gotten stuck here yet again. and its so bloody hard to get out.

i've never been hurt so much by anyone else. ever. i've never felt so completely and totally horrible. i've never been stabbed in the back like that before. i've never spent hours w/ tears filling my heart b/c i'm so sad i can't cry. i've never hated anyone before. i've never been unable to forgive. i've never been haunted like this before. your shadow just won't leave me alone.

i only talk about you to other people when i'm drunk. when i let myself feel the pain you've given me. this pain that try as i might i can't heal. i wish you could hear the things i say. i wish you could have any appreciation for the hell you've put me through. i wish i could look you in the eyes and tell you everything i think about you.

i do hate you. i wish i didn't. i wish you didn't still poison my mind. but oh well. you do.

so basically, in conclusion; fuck you.

u were hit with this at 6:51 PM

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well i've just started my new skedule... going to bed at 7pm and getting up at 3:30am... its not too bad... and i got a whole mess of work done... it is a bit lonely... :-/ cuz none of the kids i live w/ are awake this early... but oh well...

i went up to monterey bay this weekend to visit sylvana. it was WAY FUCKIN AWESOME!!! we went up to uc santa cruz.... omg... ME GUSTA!!! thanks for letting us chill w/ u SLICK!!!! i owe ya mucho!! wahoo!!! can't wait to do it again!!! :-D

oh yea and a girl in my suite, christina, LENT me her CAR. WHOA. thats way awesome/scary.

umm yea.... PMSing.... shiesty mood... ::bastards:: good superbowl parties.... from wut i remember... :-D

just for u sylvana!!!!! "ocho.... cero..... cinco....." JUST FOR U!!!!

oh yea...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAD!!!! AND TO ALEX!!! YAYAYAYAYAY!!!

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