kRikEy! so its just been one of "those" weeks... u kno wut i mean... not especially good or bad... just keep on existing... i'm breathing, eating and sleeping... yet nothing has particularly struck out...

guys... i hate to write this again... but i miss high school... i really do... at first i tried to say that i missed high school cuz i didn't like cal poly... after thinking about that somemore... i realized i do like cal poly... i do... a lot in fact... there are some way cool kids here... and hey i've been here less than a year so who knows who i'll meet in the coming years? i like my classes... the ppl i chill w/... the weather!... the environment (for the most part)... but its just something is missing... i was reading other ppls blogs and TOTALLY related to several of them... so i just wanted to quote them cuz they completely represent wut i feel....

first is from the kRikiEst of the kRikEs!! aka... marlene! ....

"lately...i've been missing high school a lot...and i know that i'm the only one that is currently feeling this way....i dunno why...but lately, i've been remeniscing about those days...the unifiorm....how we could go to school without worrying about how we look....how our purses represented our individuality...those long and arduous walks up the hill to get to the caf....the endless hugs and support...the laughter...the laughter...the laughter....i swear...i wouldn't want to have experienced what i have experienced any where else....sometimes...i just want to run back....get back into that bubble .....and enter that different world i carry with me everyday...

couldn't have said it better myself... seriously....

next i was reading from the best slice of home a girl could ask for... HOMESLICE!! aka... maddy! who said:

"Okay, so lately here, at LMU, I've begun to realize that not everyone is like the people that I went to school with for the past four years of my life. Although I love you guys tremendously, you made me too trusting. ... I wanted my friends here to be just like my friends from high school. I wanted to care about them and I wanted them to care about me the way that we did in high school. But now I realize that high school was ideal, and that all of you guys are and were ideal friends, and that I will probably never find such a large group of friends from which I trust every single one with all my heart. ... I know that I have Friends in you guys (yes, Friend has a captial F, because I've found that many people call themselves friends, but there are only the select who are Friends) and I know that I can always turn to my faith to help me out and guide me along this journey, but it's rough. This journey is rough, especially without IMMAC hugs."

awww homeslice... ur always a FRIEND to me...

then i read the sHweaTiesT of the sHweaTy! aka stefanie who said:

"so all of senior year...i couldn't wait to get the fuck out....i didn't really give a shit....but as i was going through the blogs....marlene's in particular....i began to miss the memories....the senior parking lot where we'd all run down to our cars to get the fuck out of there for the day....senior singing practice....that magnificent night at the hollywood bowl....this blog is a special shout out to my immaculate heart girls of 2002....i will never ever forget each and everyone of you....i love you"

and then... awww... from gato!!! aka... kat!:
"well yes...lately though ive been having some random thoughts...mainly concerning this time last year...what i was doing then...its also due to WEENIE who said in her blog that she was reminiscing about the days at IMAC...hahaha i can't help but remember those times in the parking lot...brandee hauling ass trying to leave first and beth not too far away....oh yes and the days at the senior section...hahah we were BIATCHES...NO ONE and i mean NO ONE could pass unless u were a senior... ... then section...donuts like every freakin day....and library memories...TRACEY I SWEAR IS THE BEST LIBRARIAN I HAVE EVER MET.....nothing was funnier than being with 112 girls that were PMSing at the same time...looked like shit and didnt care with unshaved legs and all...who would have known that was something id always cherish....even though it all done and over...im thankful for the memories...thanks c/o 2002..."

i kno there are more... but yea... thought these were way awesome... i dunno... i guess its really really starting to hit home that i'm not at immac anymore... i kno... nearly a year later and its just hitting me... damn i'm slow! haha... but its hitting me on a deeper level...

don't get me wrong... i'm loving college... but i really loved high school too... and i guess even tho i have this way awesome new place... i'm still trying to get over where i'm coming from... so yea... *sigh*... ok can't think about this anymore... all of my immacers... u guys are the best... i wouldn't have wanted to go thru those 4 years w/ anyone else... thanks c/o 2002... we were the best... we really really were....

so yea... these are for my girls... the c/o 02! 2-0-0-2 SEEEEN-YUUUUURRRRSS!!!

If We Hold On Together
-diana ross

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

I'll Remember
-madonna

Mmmm, mmmm
Say good-bye to not knowing when
The truth in my whole life began
Say good-bye to not knowing how to cry
You taught me that

And I'll remember the strength that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you saved me
I'll remember

Inside I was a child
That could not mend a broken wing
Outside I looked for a way
To teach my heart to sing

And I'll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you changed me
I'll remember

I learned to let go of the illusion that we can possess
I learned to let go, I travel in stillness
And I'll remember happiness
I'll remember (I'll remember)
Mmmmm... (I'll remember)
Mmmmm...

And I'll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you changed me
I'll remember

(I'll remember)

No I've never been afraid to cry
Now I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)

so yea... thats to the kewlest class immac ever produced... w/o a doubt!! alrite... thats all from this mofo for now...




u were hit with this at 7:06 PM

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sharlene's quote of the day

SharStar84: holy whack unlyrical madness

u were hit with this at 10:56 PM

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hmmmm.... had an enlightening conversation the other nite....

in other news... i re read some of my previous blog entries and along w/ my enlightening convo the other nite... i missed something... i have been so blinded by how much i miss the past... that i haven't been appreciating wut i do have... so ima do a few quick shout-outs to some ppl that deserve recognition for being way awesome...

GRACE!
awww man... where to start?? ur the BEST roomie!! honestly... u are... i kno i make fun of u too much... and i'll work on it... but for realz... i couldn't be handling this place w/o u dude!! u are way fun and funny... and really supportive... honest!!! i mean... how cool is it to find someone who's willing to live with me for another year?? with all my faults and all my craziness... ya still can stand me (most of the time) ;-) ... for real dude... ur the B-E-S-T! honest.... so yea dude... thanks for puttin up w/ me! ur way awesome.... and if putting up w/ me isn't saint worthy i dont kno wut is...

KEITH!
oh man... ur the best... hahahahaha.... y?? cuz duh!! ur my son!! its in ur blood!!!! hahaha... (darth vader voice) : keith... i... am.... your.... mother!!!!! hahahahaha.... thanks for the laughs... the rides!!!! and all the funny sh*t u do on a daily basis... hahahaha.... ur the best....

TRACI!
kRikEy!!! hahaha.... ur prolly like... oh no... she's gonna make some wise crack about me... welll..... ur right!!! naw... jp jp jp... this is for real... ur an awesome chica... and i'm glad u live next door... u make me laugh w/ all ur randomness and funny sh*t... so yea.... ur way awesome!!

JENNY FROM THE BLOCK
hahahahaha.... "awwwwwwwwwwwwww" "hahahahahahahahahahaha" oh man... ur way awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwsome!!! seriously... ur so sweet and nice and funny... and
"girl... i will teeeeeeeellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll you.... all about chemistry!! look im using visuals....V-I-S-U-A-L-S!!" hahaa... thanks buddy ur cool

SHARLENE J.!
oh man.... ur one funny kid... hahaha... with the point system... i kno ur at -62.... but just cuz ur cool... i'll bump u up to..... -50!! hahaha... thats 12 points right there man... kRiKEy!! but yea... ur way awesome... thanks for driving me to LA last weekend... that was way way way way WAY WAY awesome!!!! and i'm so sorry u missed ur ride cuz of me... honestly... i am way way way sorry.... :'-( for that... u get another... ummm... 30 points.... so now ur at -20.... and that was way funny when we beat the sh*t outta eachother... and since u DID win one round... thats worth... ummm.... 10 points... so now u got -10.... and ummm.... lemme think... oh yea!!! dan your man is a total pumpkin!! which shows major good taste on ur part.... which gets u... 10 points!! so now... ::drumroll:: ... ZERO!! haha... so yea... ur way awesome!!! hahaha...

alrite... thats my shoutouts for now... bye ppl!!

u were hit with this at 6:05 PM

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saw this on aol... thought it was interesting for all us "middle children"

Middle Children: Finding Their Own Pride of Place

by Robert Needlman, M.D., F.A.A.P.
reviewed by Laura Jana, M.D., F.A.A.P.

Oldest and youngest children can usually find reasons to be glad about their place in the family. Not so middle children. They often aren't the biggest and strongest, they aren't the babies who get away with murder, they aren't really anything special, at least in their own minds. Sometimes they feel invisible.

But this uncomfortable feeling of not having a defined place in the family may actually turn out to be an advantage. Unlike first children, who often define success by their ability to meet their parents' expectations, middle children are more prone to rebel against the status quo. This observation is the main point of a fascinating book, Born to Rebel: Birth Order, Family Dynamics, and Creative Lives, by Frank J. Sulloway. The book also argues that birth order--the middle position in particular--is one of the prime forces behind the scientific and social revolutions that drive history forward. I'd wager that most middle children had no idea that they were so important.

Another result of having a less well-defined place in the family is that middle children often reach outside the family for significant relationships. They make close circles of friends. During adolescence, in particular, they may be especially influenced by their peer groups, often to their parents' dismay.

Relationships with parents
Parents may not have as strong a sense of what to expect from a middle child as they do for a firstborn or their youngest. In one way, that's a good thing, because it gives the middle child freedom to follow his individual path. On the other hand, the sense of being less understood makes some middle children feel unloved. From the parents' point of view, the fact that there are a thousand baby pictures of the first child, and only a few dozen of the second-born simply means that they got tired of getting rolls and rolls of film developed. But from the middle child's vantage point, it is documentary proof of their second-class status. In terms of sibling rivalry, the firstborn may be struggling to maintain her position on top, but middle children seemingly struggle just to be noticed at all.

Relationships with siblings
For any middle child, the biggest point of comparison is the sibling who falls just before them in the birth order. Often, rather than competing head-on with that older sibling, the middle child chooses to go in a different direction. If the older sibling is a great student, for example, the middle child may become a musician or an athlete. (There's some research suggesting that middle children are more likely to engage in dangerous sports, perhaps because they are used to taking risks.) By choosing a niche that isn't already occupied, a middle child increases his chances of standing out and being noticed, and decreases the risk of negative comparisons.

Middle children, who are usually smaller than their older siblings while they're growing up, often learn non-aggressive strategies to get what they want, such as negotiation, cooperation, or seeking parental intervention. As the underdogs themselves in many sibling conflicts, middle children often develop a fine sense of empathy with the downtrodden, as do many youngest children. Where first and last children may tend to be self-centered, middle children often take a genuine interest in getting to know other people. Being in the middle, they may find it easier to look at interpersonal situations from various points of view.


u were hit with this at 11:03 AM

ok guys... so i kno that all ive really been doing is bitchin about this and that... i dont mean to be all super negative and wutnot but i guess lately i have been feeling a lil on the negative side....

i guess basically wut happened was... i went home this weekend... i saw a whole grip of ppl... i had a great time... i loved it... i miss it... i really do... i guess i really didn't appreciate wut i had til it was gone... last nite when i was talkin to the awesomest! aka... stefanie... and we had a convo that hit home for at least part of wut has been buggin me.... i miss being around ppl i love and who love me....i miss being around ppl i can stand... i miss being around ppl that can stand me... i miss being in a place where i didn't feel the need to always be on the defense... where i didn't always have to keep my guard up... where i didn't have to be a b*tch just so i dont get trampled on... i miss having ppl who will just tell u wuts on their mind... when they have a problem... they'll straight up tell u.... they dont expect u to be a f*ckin mind reader... i miss having friends who i was tighter to than anything... i miss talking to them, seeing them, the hugs, just everything about having awesome friends... i miss who i was thru "ur eyes" as maddy would say.... i just miss being secure in myself....

but u kno wut?

i'm living... i'm doing my thing... i'm not so happy... yet... but it will come... i'm not that comfortable... yet... but i will be... i dont like how things are... yet... but i will... im doing way better this quarter academically... i'm meeting more ppl everyday... im gettin my sh*t together... i aint e'en gonna lie... i miss ppl and i miss how it was like no other... but i kno that i can make it thru this....

so yea... thats all my preaching corniness for the day... haha... and as the kRikEy-eSt! of the kRikEs... marlene would say... if this is the last time u here from me... I LOVE YOU! nite...

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{Thursday, February 20, 2003 . }

ThisIsGladys: what's been up with you?
ThisIsGladys: been a while

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea serouisly
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ive been up
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ive been down

ThisIsGladys: must be catchy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: been all over the place tell ya the truth
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea seriously
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i think everyone is going thru the same damn thing

ThisIsGladys: i know
ThisIsGladys: it's funny
ThisIsGladys: it's like when girls get their period at the same time
ThisIsGladys: :/

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea i kno
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: maybe thats it
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: its the immac bond
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: we all go thru sh*t at the same time

**********************************************************

ThisIsGladys: i've realized
ThisIsGladys: i've gotten too good at acting well-balanced and rational

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea me too
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: sometimes im so good i can almost fool myself

ThisIsGladys: exactly
ThisIsGladys: it's a bitch

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: then i realize that its just an act
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: and i go thru massive downer mode
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: til i'm able to put the mask back up

ThisIsGladys: seriously

u were hit with this at 2:28 PM

i need to stop reading everyone's blogs... they make me so homesick i think ima cry....

in other news... thanks to all of my awesome immacers! who gave me an IM, a call last nite, or just listened to me bitch and moan... u guys don't kno how much u mean to me....

WHY MY FRIENDS ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD

CheerGIRLIE182: i LOVE YOU SHWEATY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am here for you! i love you! you are such an incredible person!!!

super raD bel: awwwwww peejon!! not only do you need an immac hug, you need A FLUFFY HUG!!! THE BEST KIND THERE IS!!!!! awwww peeejonn!! :-( i hope u feel better too!! smile smile smile becoz peejon peejon peejon loves loves loves you you you! hahaha, ok, im dumb. take care fluffinesss, and hmmm i think you should fly down here cuz i miss you :-)

XchopYsueyZ: ::HUGZ!!!::

SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: hey hey hey buddy!!!!!!!!
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: BIG HUG!
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: : BIG HUG!
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: : BIG HUG!
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: :-)
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: :-)
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: :-)
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: AWE.... feel better homie!!!
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: awe.. miss ya!
SwTLy TanTaLiZiN: big big big big big big big hug!!!!

SexySyl22: *immac hug*** hey my philosopy TA is named "shlomo" it's like slomo w/ a lisp haha
SexySyl22: have a good nite hope you feel better

CheerGIRLIE182: i love you shweaty ballz!

saltysampaloc15: aw sister
saltysampaloc15: *big hug*
saltysampaloc15: sending you happy vibes
saltysampaloc15: can you feel it?
thanks u guys... ur the best... i love u guys!!!!

u were hit with this at 12:36 PM

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{Tuesday, February 18, 2003 . }

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i worry about u sometimes

SharStar84: hahaha
SharStar84: what a co-inky-dink, i worry about myself too

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: well...
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ummm
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: good?
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: cuz u should mang
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ur a lil on the crazy side
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: tell ya the truth

SharStar84: i think its the gummy bears

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: wut the mess
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: gummy bears??

SharStar84: yeah, im eating gummy bears

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: *sigh*

SharStar84: they make me crAzy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ohhh
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: crAzy
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: not Crazy

SharStar84: actually, they are simmering em down

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: or cRazy

SharStar84: nope
SharStar84: crAzy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: or craZy
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: or crazY

SharStar84: emphasize the A

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: or CRaZY

SharStar84: cr-AAAA-zy
SharStar84: nope nope

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: or cRaZy

SharStar84: that aint it

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: *sigh*

SharStar84: noooo
SharStar84: definitely not

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: now i REALLY am worrin about u

SharStar84: hehehehe

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: tryin to tell me
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: that ur "crAzy"

SharStar84: the mini m&ms aint helpin either

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: cuz of some goddamn gummy bears!!

SharStar84: yeeeah

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: oh jaysus!!!

SharStar84: thats right

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: now i kno u got some surrious issues

SharStar84: seriously
SharStar84: im glad someone finally noticed
SharStar84: wait a minute
SharStar84: i dotn got serious issues

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: now u a zamn lie!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: sh*t
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: y u gotta lie for?
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: its ok to have serious issues
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: "the first step to solving ur problems is to admit u have them"
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: say it with me...
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: "my name is sharlene...
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: and i have serious issues"

SharStar84: my name is sharlene
SharStar84: but i dont got serious issues
SharStar84: minor ones

[i warn her]

SharStar84: ok ok
SharStar84: i got serious issues
SharStar84: no need to get all warning happy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: dude
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: dont mess
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: im trigger happy
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ur lucky this is only a warnin button
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i can get a lil craysay myself

SharStar84: yikes

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: hahah

SharStar84: u should be in this therapy class w/me
SharStar84: maybe u should admit u got issues too
SharStar84: serious ones

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: naw they got me in the "special class"
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: where there are guards
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: w/ tranquilizer guns
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: like in jurassic park

SharStar84: hahahahahahahaha
SharStar84: ohhh man
SharStar84: im not that bad
SharStar84: i still chill in the "normal ppl" classes

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea no...
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: im in the craysay class
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: its good times

SharStar84: hahaha
SharStar84: do u get to ride in the special little school bus too???

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: DUDE!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i DRIVE the school bus!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: muhahahahahaha
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: >=)

SharStar84: scary

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: hang on to ur wheel chairs kiddies!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: this mofo is driving!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: bwahahahahahaahahaha

SharStar84: HAHAHAHAHA
SharStar84: yeah man, u got issues!

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: hahahahaahahahahahahahaahahaha
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: thats wut im tryin to tel ya!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: thats y u dont mess w/ me!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: cuz im craaaasaaay!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: like this smiley face
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ;-)
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: u think its a wink
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: its really a craysay person twitch!

SharStar84: what is it really?
SharStar84: ahhhhhhhh
SharStar84: :-!
SharStar84: this is me kicking u in the mouth

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OH HELL NO!!!

SharStar84: muahahahahaha

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: >=(

SharStar84: i'll save those special ed kids
SharStar84: so they dont have to ride w/u

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: kRIkEY!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: girl i will HIT u with the short bus!!

SharStar84: i can run fast
SharStar84: i dotn got a wheel chair like u retards

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i can drive faster
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OHOIRHJohowie
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OH HEEEELLLLLLLLLLL NO!!!

SharStar84: what?!?!?!

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: dont be hating!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: girl

SharStar84: i dont understand TARD language

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: y do i SO have to cut u??
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: 22482348232343

SharStar84: shammit

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i aint in the room w/ guards and the tranquilizers
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: i will so kick ur arse!!

SharStar84: muahahahaha
SharStar84: i got protection
SharStar84: i ate gummy bears
SharStar84: GUMMY POWER

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: BIATCH!!

SharStar84: u know, like the cartoon...gummy bears
SharStar84: the "special juice"
SharStar84: shammit

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: "special juice" = alcohol snappy

SharStar84: muahahaha

[she warns me]

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: gads!!

SharStar84: we're even

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ::bastards::
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: im so puttin this convo in my blog

SharStar84: hahahaha
SharStar84: i would too if i were u, your feeble retarded brain wouldnt normally be able to remember my greatness

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: )OAEDr024842824829033333333333
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: girl;!!!!!!

SharStar84: and all my choice words

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: oh i am so gonna have to cut u!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: thats it

SharStar84: i must be documented
SharStar84: yikes!
SharStar84: retards are slow

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ur gettin DOCKED!!

SharStar84: i am not worried

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OHOHHHHHHHH!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: thats it snappy!!

SharStar84: noooooooooooooooo

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ur back to FIVE!!!!!!

SharStar84: i just playing
SharStar84: SHAMMIT

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: thats right
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: lets here a retard joke now snappy
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: THATS WUT I THOUGHT!!!

SharStar84: that would be mean
SharStar84: retards cant help it

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: wut the hell
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: like u weren't JUST MAKIN A WHOLE GRIP OF RETARD JOKES?!?!?!?!??!

SharStar84: who me?!?!?!
SharStar84: dude, u must be trippin'

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: oh jaysus!

SharStar84: did u take your ritilin today?

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: THATS IT SNAPPY!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ur back to ZERO!!

SharStar84: WHAT?!?!?!
SharStar84: SHAMMIT

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: wut is this shammit???

SharStar84: >:o

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: is that like a combo of shamrock and dammit??
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: are u HATING ON MY IRISH PEOPLE?!?!?!?

SharStar84: hahahahahaha
SharStar84: sharlene and dammit
SharStar84: i am your ppl foolio
SharStar84: im irsih too
SharStar84: irish*

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: *sigh*
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: ur a sorry excuse for an irish person

SharStar84: ouch
SharStar84: im hurt

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: GOOD!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: it was INTENDED to hurt

SharStar84: i was gonna offer u some of my potato salad
SharStar84: but noooooo
SharStar84: u get NONE
SharStar84: all mine

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OHHH NOOO

SharStar84: for me and my gummy bears

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: SHE DIDN"T!!

SharStar84: not U

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: Y AM I SO HAVING A FLASHBACK TO THE POTATO FAMINE??!?!?!

SharStar84: yeah, be scared
SharStar84: run away all u want

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OH HELL NO
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OH HHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL NO

SharStar84: i'll will bust out my moves
SharStar84: u will so go down
SharStar84: u can run
SharStar84: but u cant hide

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: girl

SharStar84: i know where u sleep girl

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OHODSFOSIUDRF(*)#($*)#Q( 48)#( $*48

SharStar84: right by the window

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OK

SharStar84: i will shimmey up there

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: NOW UR GETTIN ON MY NERVES

SharStar84: i already told u...
SharStar84: i dont know TARD language

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: THATS IT!!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: DOWN TO NEGATIVE 20!!!

SharStar84: :'(
SharStar84: thats a tear

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: GIRL!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: I JUST READ UR PROFILE!!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: U ARE SO DOWN TO NEGATIVE THIRTY!!

SharStar84: SHAMMIT

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: keep this up and ull never see positive numbers again

SharStar84: grrrrrrrrr
SharStar84: no no no
SharStar84: its all good

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: thats RIGHT

SharStar84: i'll be nice
SharStar84: i'll just make fun of u behind ur back
SharStar84: u wont even know

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: )#(*)#()#(*)#($)#($*
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: NEGATIVE 50!!

SharStar84: i dont understand retard language
SharStar84: GEEEEEEEEZ
SharStar84: sooooo hateful
SharStar84: u know the song cry me a river
SharStar84: justin timberlake???
SharStar84: yeah
SharStar84: well
SharStar84: :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(
SharStar84: i call that the Sharlene River of Tears

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: cry the river
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: build a bridge
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: and get OVER IT!

SharStar84: yeah, ive heard that b4
SharStar84: im hurt

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: WELL YA OBVIOUSLY DIDN"T LEARN THE FIRST TIME!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: whos the retard now????

SharStar84: sharp, stabbing pain in my chest
SharStar84: i would have to say the girl who goes to class w/jurassic park style tranquilizer guns
SharStar84: who rides in the little yellow school bus
SharStar84: not me

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SharStar84: uhh ohhhhhh
SharStar84: O:-)
SharStar84: i luv momo i luv momo

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: GIRL!!
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: U AINT NO ANGEL!!

SharStar84: well, there is no devil happy face
SharStar84: O:-)

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OH GIRL
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: u r SO lucky i am too lazy to walk to ur room

SharStar84: dude, i should go over there
SharStar84: and duke it out
SharStar84: im ready to end this

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: oh HELL yea
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: go for it bitch

SharStar84: 8-)
SharStar84: thats u
SharStar84: with 2 black eyes

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: OH HELLL NO!

[ i warn sharlene to 75%]

SharStar84: thats it
SharStar84: goin down
SharStar84: what?!?!?!?!

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: peace out g
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: HAHAHAHAHAH
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: I WIN!

[i sign off before she can warn me]

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You are the pilot.


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"you are the pilot, and the voice of the story.
you are one who creates and tells the stories for
those who could not be there. You are unable to
be comforted but wish to comfort others. There is a
a great something missing in your life. Do not forget
that you are much loved. Let your sorrow be
comforted."



hmmm... interesting.... i have this gigantic blog entry that i want to write about this... but i'll spare u guys

u were hit with this at 6:52 PM

What Drink Are You?

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{Monday, February 17, 2003 . }

kRikEy! so here i am back in slo... had a G-R-E-A-T weekend!! yayayayayay!!! it was soooo tight... here goes the rundown:

thursday:
missed my train... LONG story... so then.... this VERY COOL CHICK... named sharlene j. ... offered to drive me to LA... she's from SAN JOSE! and she drove me alllll the way to LA! how cool was that?? so n e ways... got home around 11 pm... we played a lil ps2 then watched "enough" ... then crashed....

friday:
got up around 9... took sharlene to COFFEE BEAN!! mmmmmmmmmm.... then dropped by IMMAC! cuz my sister forgot some stuff at home... (smarty!) so i showed sharlene immac... awww.... felt like home... ::sniff sniff:: kRikEy! so then sharlene j. dropped me off in rabiztown and she headed back to SLO... THANKS SHARLENE!! i owe u MUCHO! after that... did some errands con mi mama.... then i went to the immac / marlborough game... oh snap!! who kicked marlborough's rich arses??? oh yeeeees!! that was my girls on the JV basketball team... including my own kid sister... thats right!!!! so then... went to panda express... went home and crashed....

saturday:
got up around 11.... went to RABIZTOWN!! hahaha.... had to buy some clothes... then i met up with sharlene (from immac), belinda... and keith! for lunch in the galleria... then bel and keith left so me and shar went over to the marketplace... then we went to melrose and chilled there.... THEN... we went to neri's filipino restaurant... mmmmmmmmmmmm.... so good!! then i dropped sharlene off and headed on out to USC to visit the COOLEST! aka... sylvia... yayayayayay!!! we went to fatburger... mmmmm!!!! then we chilled in her very cool apartment and watched some tv.... around 10 pm... left USC and headed out to LMU to visit the one and only.... HOMESLICE!! aka... maddy!!! yayayayay!!! very good times!!! oh yea... and maddy erased my blog cuz i was gonna blog from her comp but she was a booger and erased it!!!
>:-( ggggiiiiirrrrrllll!!! i will CUT u!! shoooo!! hahaha... so n e ways... spent the nite at LMU...

sunday:
in the morning headed home... watched some TV w/ my sister... took a shower... then went back to the marketplace to buy some stuff.... ran into nicole a. awww... nice to see ya buddy!! then headed home again.... then.... at nite... picked up ALEEEEEEEEEESHA!! and LAAAAUUUUUUURRRAAAAAAA! yayayayayay!! and saw RYAN too!! wahoo!!! very cool for me!!! :-D so we went to ISLANDS!!! mmm mmmm goood!! yayayay!!! then dropped off those two crazy mofos.... tried to chill w/ susan and lacey... didn't quite work out... so i just went home and crashed...

monday:
packed all my stuff... keith came and picked me up... THANKS KEITH!!! told keith about the world (again) and we didn't get a ticket this time!! yay!! so yea... now im back in SLO... yay? haha... i dont even kno...

so yes... this was my WAAAAAAAAY awesome weekend!!! and now i gotta go do hw... *sigh* reality bites!! haha... alrite... i'm out..

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{Sunday, February 16, 2003 . }

friend : maureen remember this
friend : for the rest of ure life
friend : write it down or something
me : haha
me : ok
friend : grass before beer ure in the clear
friend : beer before grass ure on ure ass
me : hahahahahahahahaha

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{Thursday, February 13, 2003 . }

kRikEy... omg... this funky mood is just NOT leaving me!! kRikEy!! i'm not a happy camper right now... kRikEy... i dunno guys... i just feel so lonely... arejsdfkjsfkslfdkjsldfjs... oh welll... i'll deal with it somehow... oh yea... for all those in the LA area this weekend... hit up my cell.... ima be in town... AND ima have car insurance which means i can go out!! :-D alrite... hope to see a grip of u guys this weekend... i need some IMMAC hugs! and i just need my "family" right now...

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{Wednesday, February 12, 2003 . }

took this from francine and marlene's blogs...

the serenity prayer

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change...

Courage to change the things i can...

and wisdom to know the difference."

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{Tuesday, February 11, 2003 . }

u kno how u can have all kinds of good things going for u... and everything seems all happy and great... and then one stupid lil thing happens and ur whole world falls apart yet again? *sigh* it was just one of those days.... it really was... not for any particular reason... did something embarrassing... don't want to get into it... really not that bad in the grand scheme of things... but just enough to push me off the high i have been on and send me back plummeting into a (hopefully short) downward spin... *sigh* on top of that i think i'm paranoid... i swear i'm paranoid.... just about everyone and everything... i just have so much difficulty trusting others... who woulda thought? me... the person who trusted anyone and everyone... having trouble trusting ppl... funny huh? but i guess in some ways its better this way... *sigh* i dunno... i need an IMMAC HUG! right now... seriously... no one can beat it.... i think just one big immac hug would make everything better... at least momentarily... but i'm living for the moment anyways.... so i guess thats all i really need right now...

in good news... i got all B's on my midterms!!!!!! wahoo!!!!! i got a B+ on one... a B+/B on another... and a solid B on the third... how cool is that??? ok... for those of u smarties getting A's and sh*t... just remember i'm on AP! so B's are V-E-R-Y C-O-O-L! so yea... have to say i'm quite proud of that... :-D i have another midterm tomorrow... :'-( ... geez.... i have midterms every friggin week!!! sh*t!!! kRikEy!!

but yea guys... i dont kno wut it is... but my life is just not satisfying me right now... i'm just not being the person i can be... i do have some good qualities here and there... i think... i hope... but they are just not coming thru here... my walls are up and i literally refuse to let any one get anywhere near seeing who i truly am... yes they can see thru a little bit here and there... but no... they don't kno me... can't really see me.... not that i'm blaming them... its just how it is... i dont want to trust them... don't want to get attached.... dont want to be close... don't want to love them... don't want to get hurt by them... i guess u could say i have trust and abandonment issues... *sigh* thats just how it is right now.... and even tho i'm not really happy with myself... i'd honestly have to say i'm too scared to change... i just can't handle it...

so wut am i saying? i'm a spaz... and i seriously need to work on my issues... i kno this won't last... that the sun will shine tomorrow and all that other cliche bullsh*t... but i guess i don't have too much patience... i hurt now... and i don't want to hurt now... so long after my wounds healed... i guess the scars keep me from opening up again... cuz i refuse to feel like i have felt before... it is not an option... i will not let it happen... alkldkfjslfjsdlf.... i'm just so FRUSTRATED... i wish i could explain it better... but i can't... i can just feel tears forming on the inside... that i refuse to cry... i paste on a fake smile... crack stupid, insipid jokes... make fun of so and so... make a joke about x.... laugh about y.... people think i'm nothing more than a crazy ass always saying random sh*t... they don't see the soul and the sadness behind it all... they judge me as "this type" of person... or "that type" hell i dont kno anymore... and i wish i could say i don't care either... but sadly i do... i just sit here alone and frustrated cuz they just don't see me... and all the time i'm just waiting for something better... searching for some sort of purpose in this chaotic world of mine... yet lately i have come up short... i guess u can take me away from my issues... but u can't take them away from me... something like that i suppose... i just need to let go... just let all of the craziness of everything go... i need to find my center of peace... and stay there... i need to just draw a deep breath... and let it out... and just keep doing that... for a long... long time.... i need to just let go... just let myself feel this sadness inside... feel it so that i can get over it... but i refuse to... i fight it.... which inevitably makes it worse... but oh well... i do it anyways...

anyways... ima bounce... i just needed to vent... oskdflsdfjlsdkfjlsdkfjslkdfjs.... alrite... i'll leave u with gladys latest post... because it just made me feel happy and loved inside... thanks buddy!! i kno it wasn't aimed at me specifically.... but it was just wut i needed to hear....

Virtual IMMAC hugs to the lonely and stressed, the lowly and depressed; the misunderstood and those who understand all too well; the thinkers, because theirs is an incurable mallady; the lovers, who don't want to be cured; the innocent and the jaded who still wish they were innocent; the C and the D students, but especially the A students; those still looking for direction; those who wish to succeed and those burdened by their own successes; those daughters of long lunch-lines and killer chem labs, of rolled-up skirts and lunches on the quad.

Take a sadhana, and relax.

thanks gladys... that was prolly the perfect thing for me to hear right now... u dont even kno... so yea... thanks buddy!!! ur the best!!

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{Sunday, February 09, 2003 . }

kRikEy! its sunday nite... and i have a midterm on wednesday... yet i'm sitting here blogging instead... haha... guess nothing changes does it? haha... oh well... its government and its all stuff i learned last year... so anyways... wuts been up?

i had 2 midterms this week... one in my argumentative writing class... the other in intro to international relations... i think i did alrite... i hope i did... i really really like international relations... which is good cuz i'm switching majors to political science w/ a concentration in international affairs... how cool is that?? V-E-R-Y! haha... so yea... i really really like my classes this quarter.... so good times for me... i also had a term paper due this past friday... it was 8 pages... i hope i did alrite... ::knock on wood:: its worth 53% of my grade!! kRikEy!

i had some really cool convos this week!! yay! haha... so on thursday when i was supposed to be writing my term paper i started calling ppl... i called the one and only HOMESLICE!! aka... maddy!! well she wasn't there but i left a message on her fone and she called me back on saturday... awww.... homeslice.... it was so good to talk to u!! and DAMN! do i need me an IMMAC HUG right now!! hey homeslice!! i got the solution!.... hahahaha.... awww homeslice... i love you buddy!!

in other news... i've been kinda in a wierd mood these past few days... i'm just not happy with myself... i'm not happy with who i am right now... i'm just not happy w/ myself... i dont think i'm acting like the good person that i kno is inside me somewhere... but oh well... its a learning process right? so yea... OH WELL!! kRikEy!! i'll learn someday right? we'll see i guess...

anyways... i have a midterm this week... a midterm next week and 2 more term papers coming up... translation: i need to get my arse offline and get to work!! alrite... thats all from this mofo for now!! i'll leave u w/ some funny quotes from the past few days...

RANDOM COMMENTS

otman: "if her arm fell off... and she said 'ow'... i wouldn't laugh"

dan: "represent my irish sister!! "

maureen: "represent my irish brother!!"

maddy "shoo... tell me where ur roommates from... and i'll tell u wuts wrong with her!!"

jennifer: "hahahahahaha.... i dont kno y (hahahahahaha) i'm laughing... hahahahahaha"

grace: "MAUREEN!!! GET UP!!! ::pokes maureen::"

keith: "hey.... this plate looks like a face!!!"

maureen: "homeslice!! i got the solution!!!"

sylvana: "can u ask her to forget that i called her friend's friend a klepto redneck?"

sharlene: "I'M A LEAD WEIGHT!!! I'M A LEAD WEIGHT!! I'M A LEAD WEIGHT"

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{Thursday, February 06, 2003 . }

You are a Dubliner.


What's your Inner European?
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You are burning


What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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Thug Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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Fuzzy Panda! You're a fuzzy panda. You eat
bamboo.Cause panda's eat bamboo.You're lazy and
you like to sleep a lot, but if,say, a crazed
touist in China were to try and hug you, you
would probably rip out their lungs with your
flat,herbivore's teeth.


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{Wednesday, February 05, 2003 . }

kRikEy!! so its been a pretty hectic week so far... had TWO midterms yesterday.... one was at 7:40! in the morning!! how BITCH is that?? i dont e'en kno! i hope i did alrite... cuz i actually S-T-U-D-I-E-D ! for them... yea yea... first time for everything right?? oh yea... and i had a midterm last week in my international political economy class and i got ONE point below an A! how COOL is that??? damn.. can we say BITCH SLAP?! so yea... while it would definitely have been cooler to have gotten one more point and be able to say i had an A... i'm still very happy with it....

i went home this weekend w/ keith... took the LONG! drive home... ok it wasn't that long... only like 3 hours but there was traffic which just seems to make it longer than it really is... so after keith dropped me at home (THANIKS KEITH!!!!) i spent the weekend with the familia... it was... ummm... interesting? but yes... very good to see mini-me ... aka... my lil sis... and SHIZER FICK!! ... aka... my lil bro... who was cool cuz he let me beat him at football on ps2.... oh SHIZER! hahahaha... (shizer fick means f*ckin sh*t in german) hahaha... figures i would kno the CUSS words in other languages! hahaha... ummm yea... spent a good chunk of the weekend STUDYING! for my two midterms... kRikEy!

i have a term paper due friday... i had to go visit 4 nursing homes and then write a 4 page paper about my experiences and wut i observed... then another 4 page paper about whether i thought the government's policies toward the elderly is good or bad... IT IS HORRIBLE!! omg! sh*t... this one nursing home gets THREE! dollars per DAY! to feed each old person... how boo-boo is that?? i think the best moment was that as i was walking thru this one nursing home... i heard the 50 cent song "in da club" at first i thought i was delirious... then i heard it coming from one of the rooms... then this lil old lady came walkin out on her walker SINGING! the song!! hahahahahahaha... dude she is my friend!! how cool is that??? she was like.. "IN DA CLUB!!!" HAHAHAHAHA!!! that was the coolest thing i have ever seen in my entire life!! so yea... that made my day...

in other news... i'm off to go see the last nursing home... THANKS KEITH! for letting me borrow ur car!! ur the best!! even if i'm too loud for u!! :-D
hahhaa... yesterday i was harrassing keith cuz he said me and grace were too loud by his room... which we prolly were... but shoo... oh weyell! so i started yellin... "WHAT KEITH!?!?!?!?! I'M TOO LOUD FOR YOU?!?!?!? WHAT?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!" hahahaha... sorry for harrassing u "mr popular!!" hahahah...

oh yea... me and grace are gonna be rooming together next year!! hahahahahahahahhaaha.... and we get our same room... which means ::drumroll:: i don't have to move out at the end of the year!!! wahoo!!!.... ima paint the walls... muhahahahahaha...

but yea.... thats all for now... hope everyone is doing well... if not just remember my favorite quote right now... "if God brought you to it... He will bring you through it" how cool is that?? but yea... thats my favorite quote right now... but alrite... i'm out like a fat kid in dodge ball!!

p.s. DAN IS A PUMPKIN! :-D

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{Monday, February 03, 2003 . }

ok... got the following from the SHWEATIEST OF THE SHWEATY!!! aka... STEFY STEF!!

"If one day you feel like crying...
call me.
I don't promise you that...
I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.

If one day you want to run away-
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop,
But I can run with you.


If one day you don't want to listen to anybody;
call me and...
I promise to be very quiet.


But...
If one day you call and there is no answer...
come fast to see me...
Perhaps I need you."


that's to my people!!!!

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jason's addition to my previous post
c0nfus3d s0u1: O and did you notice that sometimes there are those super huge trucks that take up two fucking spaces! that's sooo gay!

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: hahahaahahahahaha
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: seriously!!

u were hit with this at 11:10 AM

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: boys are like parking spots
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: the good ones are taken

SexySyl22: shoo dont i know it

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: the ones up close are all handicapped
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: and the rest
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: are just too far out!

SexySyl22: and the ones who think theyre the good ones theyre sorta taken

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: yea
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: like they have motorcycles in them

SexySyl22: and their heads have just gotten too big

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: so theres still room in the spot

SexySyl22: lol

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: but u just can't get in

SexySyl22: noooo shit

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