last nite i met an iraq war veteran ... and he is YOUNGER than me ...

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yay! keith and i had 3 movie days in a row!!! wahoo!!! first i made keith watch "ferris bueller's day off" b/c that is a classic... then yesterday we say "underworld" OMG! DO NOT SEE THIS MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT SUCKS!!! it was just all bad ppl 2 thumbs WAY DOWN....

today we say "the fighting temptations" i liked it a lot... even tho cuba gooding jr. kinda annoys me beyonce knowles did a good job and its a fun movie...

quote from "the fighting temptations"

love your enemies... it will drive them crazy

me gusta...

well i should be studying but its just been a lazy saturday that hasn't really been work inspired.... i'm going home next weekend so i hope to see ppl!! yayayayay!! but im also having a TON of fun here so thats super awesome too!!!!!! :-D

peter camejo ( the green party candidate for governor) came to cal poly on friday and i went to see him speak... it was really interesting and enlightening... i enjoyed it A LOT!! GO CAMEJO!!! wahoo!!!

i feel like typing something long and impressive... but umm yea... no inspiration at the moment... oh well... off to clean my room!!

if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!

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i have just been told about wut is possibly the best musician of all time ... wesley willis... thanks to my suite mate chelsea!!! wesley willis passed away recently but he will live on thru his amazing musical talent.... with songs such as "cut the mullet", "shoot me in the ass" and "arnold scharzenegger" his classic songs will definitely stand th test of time...

song of the day
cut the mullet
wesley willis

Do something about your long, filthy hair
It looks like a rat's nest
Do something about your mullet
Get out the hair clippers, jerk

Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet

Get the rat's nest off your head
Get that crazy-ass mother off your skull
Take your ass to the barber shop
Tell the barber that you're sick of looking like an asshole

Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet

The mullet is the reason why people hate you
They are sick of looking at your nappy weed-sack
Nobody wants to look at you with that mullet on your head
Why don't you cut that mullet, you numbskull

Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet
Cut the mullet

Insure One, it's the insurance superstore

now if that isn't a classic.... i dont kno wut is... u will be missed wesley!!!!



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song of the day ... recommended by SYLVANA!!
its all understood
jack johnson

Everyone laughed at her joke
As if they'd never even heard it before
And maybe they were truly amused
But every word that she spoke was a bore
And maybe it's because they had seen
The previews on the TV screen
Well this part is good and that's well understood
So you should laugh if you know what I mean

But it's all relative
Even if you don't understand
Well it's all understood
Especially when you don't understand
Then it's all just because
Even if we don't understand
Then lets all just believe

Everyone knows what went down
Because the news was spread all over town
And fact is only what you believe
And fact and fiction work as a team
It's almost always fiction in the end
That content begins to bend
When context is never the same

And it's all relative
Even if we don't understand
And it's all understood
Especially when we don't understand
Then it's all just because
Even if we don't understand
Then lets all just believe

I was reading a book
Or maybe it was a magazine
Suggestions on where to place faith
Suggestions on what to believe
But I read somewhere
That you've got to beware
You can't believe anything you read
But the good Book is good
And it's all understood
So don't even question
If you know what I mean

But it's all relative
Even if you don't understand
Well it's all understood
Especially when you don't understand
And it's all just because
Even if we don't understand
Then lets all just believe

But there you go once again
You missed the point and then you point
Your fingers at me
And say that I said not to believe
I believe
I guess
I guess it's all relative

u were hit with this at 11:56 PM

finished class for the week... yay for me!! time for the weekend!!

ran into traci! nice to see ya homie! i like ur hurr!! had lunch... good times... good times... opened the sealed file for .25 seconds... i felt it was necessary... now that file has been re-sealed and will now stay that way because i am not going to bring it up again...

i have a sense of inner peace thats something to marvel at... y? i honestly don't kno.. maybe i finally adjusted? maybe i am getting happier? maybe i'm calming down? maybe i feel like i'm finding where i belong? maybe its none of these things... wutever it is... i LIKE it!

interesting times this week...

quote of the week
"say you borrowed miss piggy's flamethrower to mow your lawn...."
-my philosophy professor

that was a special moment... haha

annoying moment this week
today in political science... we were talking about the new law to give illegal immigrants licenses... i'm not sure where i stand on that issue... i honestly don't kno about it to form an opinion... so i'm listening to the professor and students debate when the guy sitting next to me starts blabbing out this anti-mexican rhetoric which thoroughly disgusted me... i was just shocked that 1) he could possibly believe his own verbal vomit and 2) that he would say this in a classroom w/ 50+ people in it... apparently i was the only one who thought that because the 2 or 3 guys around him all started laughing and adding their own comments... i'm not mexican... but thats not the point... the point is they were saying horribly mean things that were all stereotypical, racist, ignorant comments... that really ruined my mood... just the fact that ppl still hold those views is sad... it was just disgusting... so yea... that was my annoying moment of the week

so i'm trying to work harder this quarter so ima try to keep that up!!

if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!!!

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{Tuesday, September 23, 2003 . }

2 days down... quite a few to go!! haha... its all good... im taking it one day at a time... i'm trying to savor everything... so far so good!! muhahahaha


:-D

but damn do i have a grip of hw... kRikEy!! FIVE HOURS tonite!! i'm not even done!! but oh well.. i have 8 am class so its just gonna stay undone!!

this single room thing is COOL! but WEIRD!! definitely like it but its gonna take a looooooooooong time to get used to it... like i keep thinking the REAL owner of the room is gonna come in and be like, "get the hell outta my room!!!" or ima wake up and this will have been one cool dream....

completely exhausted... must sleep... nite errybuddy!!!

if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!!!

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{Monday, September 22, 2003 . }

interesting weekend...

interesting first day of class

i have a class w/ keith!!! yaaaay!!!

already got a grip of work... damn quarter system... ::bastards::

i prolly should buy the books so i can DO the work... we'll see if that one happens

hope everyone is having a good start of term (quarter system ppl) or middle (semester)

alrite... if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!!!

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{Friday, September 19, 2003 . }

back in SLO... had a safe drive and move in... i like my room... its got a nice view and all that jazz...

wow... im feeling a rush of positivity!!! i LOVE IT!!!

my parents left a couple hours ago.... so strange... for the 18 years that i lived with them i couldn't stand it... but now that i've left i really enjoy their company... its that dream family that i never had... and now.. i DO! wow... so that is awesome in a million and one ways....

met most of my new suite mates... im in a frosh suite!! haha... im the only second year... which is all good with me.... so far haven't done too much cuz i've been unpacking and all that mess.... but its been good times all around on my part

listening to lauryn hill and nas... if i ruled the world... now its ludacris... fatty girl!! yeeeeeaaaa!!!

my last day back home was fun... did all my packing... then salvador and alex came over for dinner and conversation.... LACEY! stopped by... (HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHITE TRASH!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!) she gave me a VERY awesome going away present... SCORE FOR ME!!! :-D thanks homie... so sal and alex left... went to bed... was up at 5:15 AM! to get ready to leave... got out my house around 7.... got to slo around 11... mass unpacking occurred... which would not have been possible if not for 2 cool guys!! RICHARD and his roommate MITCH!! thanks guys!! so now my room is all spiffy... come by anytime!!

wow... its so crazy having my own room!!! haha... i've never had one and this is just WOW!!!! yay!!! muhahahahahhaa

hmm.... i have something in my heart that wants to come out.... but its not ready yet... so til then... I LOVE YOU!!! godbless!!!

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{Thursday, September 18, 2003 . }

hi ho, hi ho, its off to SLO i go...

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{Wednesday, September 17, 2003 . }

awww... i read sharlene's blog and it made me feel all special!!! thanks sister!!!!! ur post DEFINETLY raised my self-confidence about 1000% :-D ppl like u make this life worth living.... i love you sister!

thanks for the happy vibes sister! i am DEFINITELY feeling them!!!

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{Tuesday, September 16, 2003 . }

summer wrap up

well... i'm getting ready to leave for school... i will be there this weekend...

this summer... was the F*CKIN SH*T!!!!!! omg.... i can honestly say that this was probably the best summer EVER... i did practically nothing... a lil work here and there... gotta make the $$... but besides some minimal work... all i did was chill and play...

so the car accident kinda jolted me... but hell... i got a WHOLE mess of LEGAL drugs out of it... muscle relaxants and pain relievers... this is the calmest i've been in my ENTIRE life!! add that in w/ my alcoholic tendencies... and u have one VERY AWESOME summer... not that i have to be under the influence to have fun... cuz i DON'T! but it is nice once in a while to just let go...

had awesome times w/ SVET! and MARI! all da tem tem tem... yay!! and of course SALVADOR and ALEX! haha... my partners in alcoholism....

i got to chill w/ a whole mess of IMMACERS! which made me VERY happy... i also met a whole GRIP of new people and that was super awesome TOO! yay for this summer!!

it was peaceful, fun, relaxing, and EXACTLY wut i needed

sure lil things popped up now and again... but wut would life be w/o that sh*t? pretty cliche... but i have to keep saying it to make MYSELF believe it.... wut would life be w/o sh*t... wut would life be w/o sh*t... ok... enough of that... i feel a lot more... hmmm.... like... ME! i feel like i really was able to find the person in me that i want to be... and bring that to the surface more than it has been in a considerable amount of time....

i am still dealing w/ my issues w/ my faults... while i don't believe that they make me "mental institution" worthy... they definetly could use some attending too... i am NOT pathetic, lazy, spoiled, evil etc. i may have some slight run ins w/ them... but they ARE NOT! my defining personality traits ... and the people that REALLY know me KNOW that... and the people that MIND don't matter and the people that MATTER don't mind...

(i have to keep up that fighter stance... it pumps me up and helps me to ignore outside negativity)

i cleaned out my room.... now all my stuff is just piled in the living room.... kinda wierd how much STUFF i have... i never realized it... just so much, its insane... i am so blessed and i definitely appreciate that....

i am looking forward to school... ok i'm saying that to convince myself... i am looking forward to school... i am looking forward to school... i am looking forward to school... ok... thats enough... to be back up in SLO where i can see the STARS and not the AIR... as opposed to here where i see the AIR and not the STARS...

i did some family bonding... strange but AWESOME at the same time... its just so funny sometimes... hmmm....

here's a cheer to the summer... the summer that lasted forever and ended in a second all in the same time... the friends that made it awesome, the bruises that keep me human, the love that i have received, the learning i have done, the lives i have been blessed to be a part of... just everything... here's to the summer!

no more negativity... that subject is closed in my opinion... i am moving onwards and upwards... and thats that...

if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!!!

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{Monday, September 15, 2003 . }

i have this inner negativity in me rite now... im totally not feeling it... but i guess its just part of life...

im leaving for school pretty soon... can't say im especially excited to go.... but thats life too...

been packing and cleaning out my stuff... a walk down memory lane that i dont want cuz it just makes it even harder to go...

i remember after i got in my car accident in june, i went to my doctor... he's way awesome... he knows about this past year at school and my accident on the transition from the 134 East to the 2 South... he told me that he guessed i just wasn't good at transitions... literally and figuratively.... i'd have to say he's rite... i either want to be IN or OUT not half way between... OLD or NEW ... not struggling somewhere in the middle...

i had a lot of time... almost too much time.... this summer to just examine, evaluate, and learn... i have to say it has definitely been an enlightening summer... the car accident was a blessing in disguise because it forced to me to slow down... to stop running from things and actually face them.... and face them i did... it was difficult... im still struggling with it... i hate the fact that i have faults... i really do... i hate it even more when other people notice them... i hate it the most when i get called on my faults.... not the fact that i'm getting called on my faults... but that i have faults to call... being as i'm a work in progress... learning my faults is NECESSARY!!! now i just need to get myself to believe that... faults are wut make me human...

its hard when i get angry at someone to see them as human... i want to vilify them... make them completely evil so that they're easier to be angry at.... ignore the good... look only at the bad... i started to think about that for a second the other day... i wondered if people did the same thing when they are angry at me? i wouldn't like that... so i guess ima have to try to stop doing that... but lord am i getting the ultimate test rite now...

in all... ima try to take this time of hardship as another blessing in disguise... i can't really see the good that will come out of it.... but its there... i have to believe that.... this past year destroyed me... mentally, emotionally, spiritually... now im starting from the ground up... i have no where to go BUT up...

i have gained a new found respect for certain people that i went to high school with... people that i wasn't necessarily close to but have definetly left an impression... the people that spoke their mind even if what they had to say didn't go w/ the popular thought... (lily) that takes an enormous amount of strength and i have to respect that... the people that got ridiculed over and over again and still came back and tried to be friends... (danielle) the people that just struggled and struggled and still held up for what they believed in... still came back every day fighting... not giving up... we may not have been close... but the impact that these people have on me is one i will carry for the rest of my life...

thats all from me for now... if this is the last time you hear from me... remember... I LOVE YOU!!!

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{Sunday, September 14, 2003 . }

quotes of the day
from my mom

"you are the daughter of the kings of Ireland, don't let this stupid peasant get you down"

makes me feel all royal... haha.... :-D

from keith... thanks son!!! awesome quote!!

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo: cuz she crucified me
super raD keith: well, guess wut
super raD keith: u rose from the dead

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{Friday, September 12, 2003 . }

colorgenics

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has gone before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

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{Thursday, September 11, 2003 . }

wow... a lot can change in 2 years huh? september eleventh.... wow... i really have nothing new to add to the commentary on that one... but i haven't forgotten... i can't believe its been 2 YEARS... Y-E-A-R-S thats insane to me that so much time has already passed...

my dad is flying to sac-town today... :( i wish he wasn't flying on 9/11 but business is business...

a lil humor....

darkbluesmoke: i wouldn't go near her with a two ton tank

uHHoHHiTzsLoMo: now THATS an idea

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further proof that sylvana and i are incredibly dumb (this was a while ago but i just found it in my files)

BabyRoseSRG (10:25:15 PM): totally hate u

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:25:21 PM): totally hate u more

BabyRoseSRG (10:26:06 PM): not een possible

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:26:15 PM): oh it so is possiboe
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:27:31 PM): i can see by ur lack of a comeback that my superior argument convinced u

BabyRoseSRG (10:28:04 PM): yes, ure argumentative skills r just beyond my comprehension

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:28:15 PM): i get that a lot

BabyRoseSRG (10:28:37 PM): im sure u DONT

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:29:12 PM): then u are shore WRONG

BabyRoseSRG (10:30:31 PM): safe to say ure arguments r as precise and intelligent as ure spelling

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:30:56 PM): don't get snappy w/ me missy

BabyRoseSRG (10:31:13 PM): dont try to regulate on me SISSY

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:31:33 PM): shoo... i don't kno y u gettin all PISSY

BabyRoseSRG (10:31:55 PM): why u acting like ure name is CRISSY

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:32:37 PM): oh ima about to cut u FO SHIZZY

BabyRoseSRG (10:33:02 PM): dont be mad cuz yo hurr all frizzy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:33:20 PM): dont u be mad cuz erryone say u bitchy

BabyRoseSRG (10:33:48 PM): u only sayin that cuz yo ass is all itchy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:34:13 PM): shoo i dont kno y u being all persnickety

BabyRoseSRG (10:34:40 PM): wtf?

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:34:45 PM): hahahahahahahaha
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:34:48 PM): its a word mang

BabyRoseSRG (10:34:54 PM): where u ge that term ure ball headed granny

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:35:01 PM): shoo

BabyRoseSRG (10:35:28 PM): u know shes all twitchy

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:35:35 PM): where u get yo manners ur snaggle tooth grandpa

BabyRoseSRG (10:35:49 PM): which grandpa u talkin bouw

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:35:52 PM): shoo

BabyRoseSRG (10:35:53 PM): cuz i aint got one

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:35:57 PM): shoo
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:36:02 PM): i dont got no grannys neither

BabyRoseSRG (10:36:28 PM): DID I ASK YOU?!

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:36:45 PM): DID I ASK IF U HAD ANY GRANDPAS?!?!?

BabyRoseSRG (10:37:22 PM): DID I ASK U IF I CURRED IF U ASKED?!!
BabyRoseSRG (10:37:27 PM): I THINK NOT
BabyRoseSRG (10:37:31 PM): beeeeeeyatch

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:37:34 PM): thats cuz u don't THINK
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:37:36 PM): snatch
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:37:51 PM): but as truly fun as this convo ISN"T
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:37:52 PM): i gtg
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:37:59 PM): snatch

BabyRoseSRG (10:38:06 PM): later ho

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:38:12 PM): peace slut

BabyRoseSRG (10:38:17 PM): ho BAG

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:38:33 PM): ho bag is YO BAG
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:38:39 PM): u dirty whore!!

BabyRoseSRG (10:38:43 PM): no thats yo TAG

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:38:54 PM): damn u are such a DRAG

BabyRoseSRG (10:39:06 PM): least i aint a snatch hag
BabyRoseSRG (10:39:37 PM): thought u had to go !

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:39:40 PM): shoo thats wut u think u snot rag

BabyRoseSRG (10:39:41 PM): leave already

uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:39:45 PM): i dzo
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:39:47 PM): FINE
uHHoHH iTz sLoMo (10:39:53 PM): whore

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song of the day
keep on singing my song
christina aguilera

Oohhh, Yeah, Oooh Huh
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change

That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
For everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine

I see every lesson completely
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I'm gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song

I never wanna dwell on my pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day

Cos I'm about to
Say goodbye to every single lie
& All the fears I've held too long inside
Everytime I felt I could try
All the negativity I had inside

For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I'm gonna carry on
I'm gonna keep on singing my song

Whoa, & everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see
All the good around me
They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe

I'm human, I ain't able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time

I'm human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heaven above I've made the decision
Never to give up
Til the I day I die no matter what I'm gonna carry on & keep on singing my song.....

(They can't take anything from me)

I believe that they can do what they wanna.
Say what they wanna say

(They can say what they wanna)

But I'm gonna keep on
(Keep on )
I believe it
That they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

Say what you wanna say, but I'm gonna sing my song
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

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{Tuesday, September 09, 2003 . }

thanks svet!!

song of the day
walking away
craig david


I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

u were hit with this at 9:01 PM

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{Monday, September 08, 2003 . }

thanks to:

BELINDA!!! thank u so much for coffee and talking yesterday!!! it was much appreciated!!
JEFF!!! omg!!! i dont even kno u!!! haha!!! but u still totally had my back!!! wow!!! ur awesome!!!
GLADYS!! thanks for your calming and inspirational words
MARI! thanks for ur righteous anger... its means more than i can say to have people that will get that angry for you
ALEX! thanks for just being cool and a good listener!
SYLVANA! ok... we haven't even discussed wut i need to talk to u about but thanks in advance cuz i kno u'll say the right sh*t!
STEFANIE! for being a voice of reason!!! ur the best mang


"i guess words are a mother fucker they
can be great or they can degrate or even worse they can teach hate"
-eminem
"sing for the moment"

CheerGIRLIE182: i love you maureen and don't let haters get you down
thanks shweaty!!! much love!!

now the question becomes... where to go from here? do i act as my emotions say? which would be angrily and immaturely? or do i go w/ my head and deal w/ this reasonably and maturely? well i guess my immatureness will be put on hold for now... lying in wait... this is gonna go down maturely so help me...

u were hit with this at 10:30 AM

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{Sunday, September 07, 2003 . }

today today today

today was the kind of day that u kno u have to have occasionally but dammit its no fun when it happens

so today while deleting files from my computer... i came across something rather interesting... i will not go into specifics but for the 2 people concerned i will now answer your question... YES my AIM+ has a history button... and YES i know how to access it

so i read something today that ripped out a big chunk of my heart... threw it in a vat of acid... took it out... and put it thru a blender...

but u kno wut? thats life and ima deal with it

to the "haters":
thank you for spending so much of your time and energy on me... it makes me feel special to kno that u spend so much of your valuable time worrying about me and the way i live my life... i appreciate it...

nothing but love and gods blessings to everyone!!!! PEACE!!!

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{Thursday, September 04, 2003 . }

open letter to slick

hey slick!

well slick... sad to say... i have not been very sleek as of late.. :( im trippin like a drunk w/ their shoelaces tied together... i have made some MAD! conektions for the krew this summer tho... but i also made some bad mistakes... sometimes i can be such a total SNATCH and i don't even realize it... for example... a couple weeks ago i was asking my friend's boyfriend for directions over the phone... i don't really know this guy... seems like a good guy and i trust my friend's judgment so there ya go... but i was a total BITCH... and i didn't even realize it at the time... then when i thought about it later... it was like... WTF?!?!!?! if someone had talked to me like how i talked to this guy i would be extremely insulted... and i honestly don't kno y i did it... i was just so RUDE it was DISGUSTING... i am completely ashamed of how i acted... and since i see this guy rarely and when i do see him there are other ppl around... i haven't had the opportunity to apologize... which i need to do at an extreme level.... so in case this guy ever sees this... which i doubt he will... but if he does... a true face to face apology is coming.... cuz i was way out of line....

so basically... im hoping to just learn from my mistakes... easier said than done... but hopefully i'll stop trippin so bad... cuz our krew needs some more conektions!!! and im not gonna get any acting like i have been to certain people... so yea... my conecktion skills are beening honed... humility. sleekness. kindness. say it with me now!

u were hit with this at 9:08 AM

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{Tuesday, September 02, 2003 . }

shazam!

u were hit with this at 9:43 PM

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