ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! i'm feeling totally emotional and BLAH!!!!!! >=( stupid hormones... argh alkajslkdjfslkdfjsldkfjsldkjfslkdfjs gads... im so annoyed and the thing thats most annoying is that i dont have any good goddamn reason to be annoyed!! i just have this negative energy bouncing around inside of me... makes me twitch.... woeiruweoriweoriuweoiruweoiruweoiruweoiur ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :'( :'( :'( slkdjslfdjsdkfjsdf

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im totally PMSing which has A LOT to do w/ my emotional-ness rite now....

in other news....

interesting week... finally closure to an open sore that was plaguing my heart... thank the lord! thank you thank you thank you! i can lay "it" to rest now and keep on steppin

took a midterm last week in psych... WHO GOT A PERFECT F*CKIN SCORE?!?!? oh sh*t!!!!!!!! and i didn't cheat either!!!!!!! bwahahahaha

took a political science and a philosophy midterm this week... ::knock on wood:: get them back this week... i hope i did well... ::knock on wood::

political rant
so i've been repping for all my bleeding hearted liberals up in this conservative stronghold.... (sorry for the labels BJ but thats really how it is!) its discouraging as no other... but extremely enlightening at the same time... part of me wishes i had gone to UCSC just b/c its so much more like me... but then i figure that adversity builds character... (dont remember where i got that but i like it a lot) so i figure by the time i get outta here ima have one helluva character... its just so depressing because politics and social issues are what i am so passionate and so involved and so into and this is such a politically apathetic school that its painful... the only real "political" statement that goes around here is that liberals are "pansy fags" who should get the shit beaten out of them.... while that isn't expressed by a majority of the people here... even one person thinkin like that is enough to get under my skin... i wont lie... i have NO respect for the majority of conservatives i have met here (NOT all, there have definitely been exceptions), by and large they have been ignorant, racist, bible thumping, homophobic, assholes... but i do try to at least LISTEN to what conservatives have to say.... i learn a lot more from ppl who disagree w/ me than those that agree... for example last year i was called a HITLER SUPPORTER (may 21)because i didn't support the war in iraq... if U can make sense of that sh*t ur a whole lot smarter than me.... so wut the fuck? it gets to the point where i just want to give up... its so frustrating when u have to fight everyone by urself... not fighting people persay... but just contrasting ideologies... ppl can believe wutever the hell they want... but when our values conflict i am not one to take it lying down... as of yet i am not able to comprehend why ANYONE would choose to be republican... it just seems like such a no brainer to me... there is SO much shit going down on this planet and no matter how much $$ u make... the planet is still going to hell... how come i can sit here, typing away on my computer in a comfortable room in a place of higher education which will lead to tons of opportunities, while people are starving to death, getting horrible diseases and just so much misery in so many parts of the world? and how the FUCK can people consciously kno all of this and NOT care? i look around my room... which is very nice... extremely nice... and in a way i am ashamed... because nothing about me is so special as to deserve this... i dont deserve any of the things that i have and there are so many people who do deserve it... i am proud of my family because my parents worked their asses off to get to where they are, so they are able to afford things like this for their children... but my parents aren't the only ones who work their asses off... i kno this... so many people work so hard and see no results... none wutsover... why? why does it have to be this way? and how the hell can people be so goddamn complacent about everything??? i want to live my life appreciative of everything... which is y i could never comfortably live in a rich bougie house... theres so much, how can u possibly appreciate it all? i think i would get used to it and take it for granted... thereby becoming the EXACT type of person that i despise...

it just seems like their is such unneccessary pain in this world... the differences between rich and poor countries... sick and healthy people... happy and sad... and it doesn't need to be this way... and it just makes me so goddamn depressed i want to be older so i can do more about it... as for now i feel so pathetically helpless... but thats just the way it goes

brought to u be a passionate PMSing liberal....

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i cried last nite


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i'm fucking terrified

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE STUPAHEST HO ON THE PLANET AKA SYLVANA BIN LADEN!!!!!!!! I HAYTE U!!! U STUPID HOTEL MANAGER!!!!!!!!!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!!!!!!!!!! I HEART YOU!!!!!!!!!!

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another week done... 3 down... a whole mess to go... another good, if tiring week.. this whole "homework" thing is highly overrated in my opinion... but oh well, i'm not getting graded on my opinion so... yay for massive amounts of hw!!! uhh yea.... wuteva!! it seems like the more hw i do... the more i have... ::bastards:: oh well, i'm going home this weekend (again)... well just about erryone in my suite is going home so i kinda wanna go too.... plus svet is still in town so we can cause some more ruckus!!! YEES!!! muhahahaha... so umm yea i used to have these long posts where i discussed my thoughts and feelings... havent had one of those in while... and don't worry!! i wont bore u w/ one now!!! bwahaha... so if u wanna kno wuts REALLY goin down... gimme a call or an IM.. cuz i kno ur all interested in my pathetic excuse for a life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *wank wank* (-_o) bwahahaha... well off to do mas tareas para mis clases!! can't wait!!!!!!!!!! thanks for the shout out gladys!!! the lil things are the best!!! :-D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYLVIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well buddy... givin u a shout on ur big 1-9!!! hope everything is going awesem.... hope to talk to u soon!!! bye buddy!!! :-D

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good day... :-D well my whole suite (cept for 2) r heading home this weekend... so im trying to decide wut to do... ? don't kno at this point... wouldn't mind a road trip ;-) visit some of my ppl down in SO CAL.. yea yea... i saw some of u last weekend... but u can never have too much of a good thing...

in other news... PROP 54 was SHOT DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't care that ahhnold is going to be the governator... it dont matter... im beyond ecstatic that this thing was voted down... so umm yea... thats my lil political commentary

i got the new OUTKAST CD!!!!!!!!!!! me gusta MUCHO!!!

talked w/ MY GIRL COORRRRIIIIINNNNYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAA.... good to talk to ya homie!!!

so im having good times all da tem.... wow!!! who woulda thought?! i sure didn't.. :-D while my mood does fluctuate... i can honestly say that i am content with my life rite now...

been talking to a whole mess of ppl as of late... both old and new!!! :-D

alrite... thats all from me for now... if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!!!

song of the day
island in the sun
weezer

Hip hip
Hip hip
Hip hip
Hip hip

When you're on a holiday
You can't find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

Hip hip
Hip hip

When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

Hip hip
Hip hip
Hip hip

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

Hip hip

We'll never feel bad anymore
No no
We'll never feel bad anymore
No no
No no
No no





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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELINDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey buddy!!! just givin u a lil shout out on ur b-day!!!! :-D ur the best buddy!!! thanks for helpin me thru all the craziness!!! the calls and the trips to coffee bean!!! hope ur birthday is awesem!!!

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{Friday, October 03, 2003 . }

aww... kRikEs!!! thanks for the IM!!! it made me smile!!!

sHorTiE pNay Luv (3:33:32 PM): kriOkeY! how are you?!?! I MISS YOU! i hope everything is on the up and up for you! cuz you are the coolest person.... i LOVE you! take care..and watch out for those rare asian crocs...i hear they are quite seXxaYy!..hahah! hope to hear from you soon! stay irish! peace foo! peace...........

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so back home in LA... damn it is COLD up in this biotch!!!! wtf?!?!?! where's my so cal sun??? oh well... its all good in my hood... sylvana bin laden is back in town... oh snap... u KNO we gonna cause some RUCKUS up in hurr!!! add in mari, salvador and alex... oh sh*t.... be lucky if LA is still here when we done... :-D

my emotions are a lil rocky at the moment... no particular reason... damn i wonder wut its like to be stable... haha.. i guess it would make things pretty boring... oh well!!! bwahahahaha

talked to NATASHA! last nite!!! wahoo!!! good to catch up w/ yo stank ass!!

well i only got so much time here in LA so ima go make the best of it!!!! :-D

if this is the last time u hear from me... I LOVE YOU!!!! :-D

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{Wednesday, October 01, 2003 . }

heading home tomorrow... can't wait to go!! :-D this weekend is gonna be bomb.... y u ask?? 1) i'll be in LA and how could that be bad?! 2) SYLVANA the GREAT and MAUREEN the INFAMOUS will be reunited after a month of being apart... ::bastards:: 3) MARI is gonna be in LA too!!! 4) LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

muhahaha... this week has been yet another interesting one... im really starting to like it here so i guess its a good thing i stayed? so far yes... waiting for the other shoe to drop... had a good talk w/ TRACIE!!!!!!!! yayayayayayay!!!!! she still puts up w/ me even tho i dont go to immac anymore!! score for me!!

im liking my classes quite a bit... my spanish teacher isn't as bad as i originally thought... so thats cool... the rest of my teachers are super awesem... haha... yay for cal poly!!! (never thought u'd hear me say that huh?) bwahahahaha....

i bought "bend it like beckham"!!!! YES!!!!! me gusta mucho!!!!

been doing lots of thinking... bad comes before the good... and thank the lord i'm seeing the good.... its ALL mental... gotta keep thinking positive and positive things will happen... so yea... yay optimism!!!!!!!! (w/ a small side of cynicism... wouldn't be me w/o it!)

well off to hw... so i can party hardy this weekend!!! :-D

if this is the last time u hear from me.... I LOVE YOU!!!!!

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